I got a message today that I want to pass on to all of you. Let me give you some background first.
Two years ago I hit bottom. I was broken emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically. I wondered how I was going to get out to bed and make it through each day. Then my friend Sarah gave me a book called The Grandmothers Counsel the World. Through reading that book I discovered The Center for Sacred Studies where I signed up for their Ministry Training Program. For two years I have done an intense study program and this April, in a few short weeks, I will graduate and become and Ordained Minister of Walking Prayer.
I have spent the last two years (well my whole life really) in survival mode. I managed to pay for my tuition, my books and pay my bills by working as many as four jobs at a time. It has been scary, exhausting, frustrating, back breaking and heart breaking for much of the time but I was determined to see it through. Much of the study is about “healing thyself” because in order to help others heal you must first heal yourself. And heal I have. Over time I have changed my perception of my world, the world in general and also of my perception of those around me. I have moved from being a victim of circumstance and people to being an empowered being and a child of God.
I am all set to go to California in April. I have paid all my tuition off, paid for all my books and my graduation is paid for. The only thing I needed was one more breath work class, my travel money and my ceremonial whites. As a pet sitter I have been pretty busy so I felt like I would be okay when everything stopped. No calls for pet sitting, no money coming in. My survival mentally kicked in and I began to fret on how I was going to get this last part of my journey done. A classmate of mine suggested I open up a Go Fund Me campaign. I felt like if I did that and sold off the last of my belongings at a yard sale I could get the funds I needed. The first day of the campaign was fruitful. I was asking for 1000.00 dollars and by the first day I had raised 171.oo dollars and then that just stopped. Yesterday I began to wallow in self pity. I wondered why my friends and family weren’t even sharing my campaign on Facebook and I felt I had no support. This has been a theme I have dealt with many times in the past. I have never felt supported hence my strong survival instincts. I have often felt like I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders having to do everything on my own. I stopped asking for help long ago and over time forgot how.
The very first lesson we studied in the Ministry Training Program was that of humility. I discovered today that being a Minister of Walking Prayer is a practice. It is a journey that will take a life time to master. The lesson of humility was finally understood today. Before leaving to walk two lovely Golden Retrievers by the name of Winston and Jackson I prayed. I asked for guidance from Father, Mother, God, my angels and my spirit guides. It was a Red Tailed Hawk that answered me.
As I was walking up a mountain with Winston and Jackson a Red Tailed Hawk swooped down and landed on top of an Oak Shrub Tree ten feet in front of me. I was astounded that one would come so close to not only me but my two big companions as well. The dogs just sat down and then the Hawk screeched at me. At that moment I instantly knew that I let my fear lead me off my path once again. The Hawk screeched again and then took off. The next thing I knew the Hawk turned around, glided right over to me and touched its wing lightly to the top of my head and then it fly off. It never occurred to me to be afraid and duck. I was stupefied and the message came to me loud and clear. Hawk was asking “Have you ever thanked the healers, teachers, supporters and friends that have walked with you on your journey?” Had I? “Walk your prayer and give love and gratitude to those that have been your teachers, healers, supporters, and friends.”
Once again I marvel at my shortsightedness and I am humbled. I continued on my walk with the dogs and I began think about all the people, plants and animals, circumstances, heart breaks, failures and triumphs in my life and I am in awe. Thank You. For all the many souls that have guided me on my journey….Thank You.
I want to say that it is not what you can do for me but what I can do for you. What does it mean to be a Minister of Walking Prayer? It means that I walk my prayer. My ministry should be showing up in everything I do. That I should be mindful and present in every aspect of my life. That I walk in love and trust that my path is going exactly where it needs to go in order for me to grow as a spirit of God. So my campaign is not so much about the money you can give me but the love and gratitude I can give you. Prayers are welcomed and treasured. You don’t have to “share” on Facebook and you do not have to donate. There is only one thing I want you to do today. Sit quietly somewhere for however long it takes and think about all the people, animals, and life lessons that have supported you and taught you on your life path. I want you to have this be a heart centered prayer of gratitude even to those that you feel have wronged you. They all taught you something. Pour your love and gratitude out to them,. Forgive everyone that has hurt you but more importantly forgive yourself right now of everything that you have not forgiven yourself for and let it go, let it be. Think of all the small, insignificant acts of kindness you have done and others have done to you. They add up and they are all beautiful. Be grateful to the creator for your life and all the beauty, joy and love you have been able to experience. Let the light in and let it shine.
That is my message to you. That is the only thing I want from you. You do not have to support my journey, my Go Fund Me Campaign, my opinions or anything about me. Just be grateful and fill yourself with love for all those that have touched your life. That is what I am doing.
Hawk is a Messenger Spirit Guide. The message she gave me today was to Walk My Prayer.
I want to help people and animals heal. Only love can truly heal anyone. I want you to know I love each and everyone of you…the ones I have met and the ones I will meet. You have all colored my life and made me grow to be the person I am today and I am so grateful to each and every one of you.
You are a Sacred Divine Being made in the image of The Divine Supreme Creator. I am in awe of you. Thank you for being a part of my life and sharing your gifts with me whether they be big or small. They are as significant as you are.
Lisa Sunny Day