I know…..it has been awhile once again but when I explain why you will understand. I graduated from my Ministry Training from The Center of Sacred Studies April 19th. It changed me so completely I will never be the same. Oh…I know….I have been changing little by little throughout the two years of the program but something so profoundly magical happened to me on graduation. To all of us in my class. I wish I could describe to you how “whole” I feel. In my ministry Holy means Whole-y.
I had a rough month upon my return. I came home with my heart wide open and in love with everything but I was only home one night when I had to go pet sitting and working my other job for a solid month. I was alone and felt so isolated and deflated at the fact what I was doing was not “feeding my soul”. Those of you that have been reading my blog know my struggles and one of those struggles was earning enough money to sustain myself. The pet sitting and my job at the metaphysical bookstore called The Expanding Heart on Main Street in Park City barely kept me even but it was enough that I wasn’t pushed to look elsewhere. I walked in on a Friday to work at the bookstore and found out the owner was closing the doors and Sunday was my last day. I was devastated because now I was losing what precious little income I had and no pet sitting jobs were coming in. I would have to once again try to find a job I could stomach. Things, in other words, went from bad to worse upon my return of my spiritually life changing week.
I did the only thing I knew I could. I set up my altar and I prayed…A LOT. But I also did something else. I stayed present everyday and would note each and everything that was going right in my life. I was grateful for so much and what I found was even though things were not sometimes fair or easy I really was blessed at all that was in my life. I was even finding I was grateful for the person that I was. I now sit in front of my altar and say my prayers of gratitude and send my love and blessings out to those I know and don’t know and to our great Mother Earth and to the compassionate Creator that has shown me nothing but unconditional love and patience…..twice a day. Every morning and every night.
I also opened up the paper to the classified section and began job hunting. The first thing I saw in the paper was a job available at a nonprofit here in Park City/ Salt Lake City called Adopt-a-Native-Elder. It intrigued me so I sent in my application and resume and by that afternoon I had an interview set up. I showed up for my interview and after hearing about what the program was all about not only was I wiping the tears from my eyes I also knew I was home.
Basically what this nonprofit does in short is we care for 500 Traditional Navajo Elders ranging from age 75 to our oldest now that is 102 by providing food, medical supplies, wood, clothes and a way for them to sell their jewelry and hand woven rugs so that they can provide for themselves. Most of them did not go to school. Most do not speak English. Most live without running water or electricity. They still dress in their traditional clothes and carry on their traditional ways which is what I have learned and embraced as my own. They still do 5-9 day healing ceremonies. They still commune with nature and offer blessings to all living beings. They are beautiful beings!! I highly recommend watching the video to learn more.
This is not to get any of you to donate (though that is always a blessing) but this blog is about my journey. My path all these years has been preparing me for my new role…of that I am certain. I have so many stories and revelations to share with you but I will just share one such example for now and that is of the Bluebird.
Back in March I went to South Carolina to finish my Maitri Breath Work requirements and to stay with one of my clan mates. During my breath work I had a vision of a Bluebird. The Bluebird is not a bird I have given much thought to. Then when I went to stay with my friend I saw a Bluebird in her back yard. “The first of the year” she said. After I got home every time I would walk the dogs I was watching I would be followed by 3-5 bluebirds which I just loved. They seemed to shimmer the brightest blue and they were beautiful. I kept having dreams of the Bluebird (which means happiness and new beginnings by the way) but I could not understand the significance until my second interview with the Director of Adopt-a-Native-Elder or ANE. I walked into her house and the first thing I saw was all the little bluebird pictures and statues in her house and then I saw the bag of Bluebird Flour. This flour is the only kind the Navajo people will use. It is used in sacred ceremonies and it also a symbol of the Grandmothers ironically. It also means happiness and spring, new beginnings and generational/ancestral healing. I was blown away but not surprised as it was obviously a sign from Spirit. I was exactly where I needed to be.
This program is so organized and helps in many other way as well such as providing school supplies and shoes for the children, yarn for the rugs for those who are too old to shear their own sheep. We do many, many other things that make my heart smile. I have a lot to learn and I am working hard to try to learn as fast as I can. I just spent Fourth of July with two of our Elders. They are sisters, Elsie and May. May is 91. They brought their family and I have fallen in love with these quiet, gentle people. I cannot wait to see them again. Tomorrow they head back to the reservation in Arizona to their home called Big Mountain.
I will be learning so much all while being an instrument of Her Walking Prayer which is what I have studied for for the last two years and what I have longed to do. I will share all I can as this journey I am on has just become even more magical than I ever dreamed it could be.
With Gratitude and Blessings
Rev. Lisa “Sunny” Day